Being kind to yourself


A week off is great in so many ways for me. Although I can totally see how it’s easy to slide back into old routines with sleeping because I so didn’t want to get up this AM. I got up an hour later than normal and at first – talked myself out of doing any sort of exercise..but as I was walking from my bed I walked directly to my workout clothes got them on, brushed my teeth, downed a glass of water, grabbed my Ipod and HR monitor – said mornin’ to Scotty – and headed outside. No hesitations, no questioning — I went for a run.  I knew that if I skipped the run this AM – I would be mad and guilty later today and since it’s been like 103 here in the DC area, I would find a lot of reasons to not workout later!

So I posted a bunch of pictures that Scott and I took this past weekend at the Gaylord National resort. Some of them were of me and it brought me to some realizations. It takes a while for your mind to catch up with the reality. When I look at the pics of me – what do I focus on – in my mind, all I see is that I look chunky which in turn bums me out. I work so hard and I still don’t look like I think I should look. It’s very discouraging and everyone around me tells me I am crazy. Maybe I am, who knows. I am hard on myself, I know but if I’m not than who will be?

Also, I ran into someone I know while we were at National Harbor. As I was walking away, I thought to myself, I hope I didn’t disappoint her with how I look. She knows how hard I work out –If you stop and think about that – that is downright sad. I have a lot more work to do on myself…

Starting with being kinder to myself