Are You Ever Good Enough?

I am definitely taking a day off tomorrow.  I did 13.1 CrossFit Open workout on Friday, then did a killer WOD on Saturday that included 4x100m walking lunges and then did the amazing Carl Paoli workshop on Sunday, Monday did Mary and then today – heavy dead lifts.  I rarely workout five days in a row but it just sort of happened.

I am still processing all the info I learned from the Movement workshop on Sunday – one thing that keeps popping up in my mind is how much work I have to do. I don’t mean to keep reminding people but I was not athletic growing up at all –so I have a ton of stuff to learn still. I am miles ahead of where I started five years ago, but there will be things that come up that remind me how far I still need to go.  To put a different spin on things though — everyone should have a ton of stuff to work on all the time – just varies in complexity.

But I went to the workshop with three other CrossFit Impavidus coaches and they are all amazing athletically to begin with – so when I struggled with stuff during the workshop, I found myself getting really frustrated and starting to doubt my own abilities.  And I am still going over some of the stuff in my head. I know it’s not about comparing my abilities to others — I know this in my head but emotionally I am frustrated that I am not as amazing as the athletes I hang out with.  I am completely a work in progress — gotta work on the skill of acceptance and focus.

When you are surrounded by these amazing athletes all the time and they all push as hard as you do and live and breathe this stuff, like you do — is to set your own benchmark. How do I know where I land athletically compared to the rest of the world? Will I ever be good enough? Probably not —

Yesterday, I read a post by Seth Godin “Never Enough” — “We’re going to spend our entire future living in tomorrow—investing now, when it’s difficult, is the single best moment.” And while he was talking about business in this particular post, it can be applied to life in general.  I feel that the stuff I am doing now with CrossFit is really an investment in my future. It’s mentally and physically hard a crap right now –but will come in handy as I get older, as we all do.

I came across this site yesterday: PsychologyWOD.com  Looks pretty interesting and I definitely need some help in the area of mental grit and focus. During my first year of working out, I remember a friend of mine suggesting to me that I need to look into seeing a sports psychologist to help me push through some of the harder workouts. I have talked about this before — because I didn’t grow up super athletic and didn’t play team sports, I didn’t grow up building a solid foundation in health and fitness. It sometimes shows in my training — when something hurts, I stop. Human nature, right? I never learned how to sometimes push through and am learning it now.  My asthma is also something that stops me from progressing in certain areas. I need to learn how to bring it under control when I start to breath heavy. I am so trained to stop and reset my breathing patterns instead of learning how to bring it under control while still focusing on the goal at hand.

I know I have come a long way in my progress, but sometimes — after being challenged harder than I am used it –it brings back up all the self doubts I struggle with. I guess you can say challenges bring out the best and worst in people and allows you to reassess your progress and the stuff you have still have to work on.

One more thing to share: Ladies read this: Can Feminists Find a Home in Crossfit?  Is Crossfit only fit for the super-fit and super-sexy? 

warmup

• DROM
• tire flips
• KB Swings

skill

• Double Under

WOD

1-10-1-20-1-30
Deadlifts – Go Heavy!!

• 215-215-205-205-195-195#