I know I am not the only one that during times of a lot of stress or times when I am upset about something, during a workout that pushes me, I start to tear up and if I let myself, I cry. I spent a lot of time holding in and trying to focus on not letting things get to me, so when I workout and I am taxing myself, pushing myself and getting to that super uncomfortable point, I can not hold it in any more and the tears come out. It happened last week, and started to happen again today. Exercise releases a slew of pent-up emotions for me – and I am sure it’s good for me in the end. Keeping that stuff inside helps no one and it’s a healthy way to channel what I am feeling. Throwing a slam ball to the ground, over and over again, envisioning it’s a few people that I know, is a lot better for me day to day than doing the real thing. Right?
Here’s an article about crying during a workout that had some good info.
I’m really at a crossroads right now — and am going through waves of emotions. What do I want to do with my life? What brings me joy? What am I worth? What is wrong with me? Why am I repeating shitty experiences in my life? When will I learn? How can I take the jump and just do it? I go over these questions and more over and over again in my head – trying to figure out what should be my next step, where can I go for help. I am processing things and know that I need to plunge into the next step — it’s just the actual plunge that seems really, really scary.
My mom said to me yesterday that my issue is I am really passionate about things and when people don’t get that, it puts them on edge. I realize I need to improve my communication skills so that I am able to adjust my approach based on who I am with. It’s a skill that I need to work on — lop it on with everything else! It does tend to get me in trouble though, so it probably should be moved higher up.
AAAAhhhhh– I’m so overwhelmed right now with changes that have and need to happen. Then I remember what Scotty said the other day – “Babe, we beat Cancer. We can handle anything!”
strength: power clean – (position 2) 83# 5×2
WOD
buy in: 400m run
3 Rounds
10 Thrusters
20 Slam Balls
cash out: 200m run
time: 12:22
I am really slowing down on lifting while in a workout. So the thruster was deliberate and slow, so not to exacerbate my lingering shoulder issue and it worked. No pain after this WOD. And the tears were bubbling up during the slam balls, which probably slowed me down a bit as well.
Here’s a few things I have read this week: