I had a big life change on Friday where by I am officially looking for a new career opportunity. I have often talked about life giving you lots of signs that you need to make a change — and if you ignore it or refuse to take some sort of action – -life tends to give you a good kick in the ass to get you to move. Well, the good, swift kick in the ass came on Friday – 7 years to the month of my start date. It wasn’t a huge surprise but it still sucks but I am now focusing on moving forward, making progress and seeing what fun, exciting learning experience awaits me next. It’s hard for me to be comfortable with the instability of not having a job but it’s also a good exercise for me. The more one is comfortable with being uncomfortable the easier it becomes to make changes and this change was a long time coming.

On that note -if you know of any people you think I should meet or any career opportunities -please drop me a line. I am really taking time to meet with people and explore what will work for me. In the past, I have spent way too much time worrying about finding my next job that I didn’t take the time to make sure it was the right job that met my requirements. Once you settle for things that you know are not right, it’s hard to regain balance.

I am definitely one of the luckier ones out there – my husband is gainfully employed, we have some money in the bank and won’t be on the street because of this situation. So for that – I am thankful. And you know what else – there is something freeing about getting out of a situation that was not healthy. I had been putting up with things for way too long that I knew were not helping me – and being caught in a fear loop of what’s next for me. You know what happens when you stay there too long? You become out of balance — the last time I was this out of balance was right before Scott got sick. Things were just not right and not knowing what it was — it was showing up in all sorts of ways. My house was a disorganized mess. I was forgetful. I lacked patience and ignored taking care of myself. And then we found out what was causing the unbalance and began to address it — and I found CrossFit.  I was heading down the same slippery slope the past month or so – losing my focus and edge that I worked so hard to maintain.

The past few years, as much as I loved the actual work I was doing, the structure of my work and the culture that I was in was not the right fit for me. And with so many things, when things are coming apart at the seams – I tend to be one of the first to react to situations like that. Happened at the last CrossFit gym –things were going haywire and I reacted. It’s amazing how in tune your body and mind really are to situations and if you stop and pay attention – you can actually feel when things aren’t right.

Strength: Squat Clean
WOD:
manmakers
pull ups
shuttle runs