I woke up today in such a funk — I feel fat, lethargic and just plain down and out. I have been totally ignoring my normal eating and have seen it start to seriously show up. I can hardly fit in my jeans and my skin is breaking out. I seriously ate like 10 cookies today in one sitting — yeah, gluten free — but TEN FUCKING cookies!
It’s time for me to be honest and take a hard look at what the fuck is going on. This is not who I am –this is not how I want to be.
Getting laid off and losing my job hit me hard and it was harder than I thought it would be to just move on. It’s the hard, cold truth- and although I am doing some work and have a few job prospects already, I am still really upset and it is manifesting itself in my nutrition. Sitting at home all day, doing the work I need to get done is not good for me. I start each day off with the best of nutritional intentions only to sabotage them by the end of the day. I am not sure how I convince myself that it’s OK to eat those Gluten free pretzels while I am hard at work on the computer, or to start eating healthy popcorn once again. It’s like I don’t recognize myself while the internal voice takes over — Am i going crazy by talking this way?
I am not sharing this because I am looking for some words of wisdom or anything — I know it’s time to be honest with myself and stop feeling shitty and sorry for myself about what happened. Hannah mentioned to me me the other day, she noticed that I have been slacking from my Paleo eating. When i was trying to explain why I think it’s happening – she simply said by letting it get to me, I was letting them win. She always has a way of offering some sage advice for her Momma.
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